10:49 PM

the news finally hit me this morning..
i always told myself not to harbour any expectations..
so that when i fall short..
at least i wont be so disappointed.
yet today,
it came when i was least prepared.
all my harboured dreams..
vanished.

today,
i saw my hopes shatter to pieces
and fall into nothingness.
today,
i experienced how to lose everything in that one moment.
today,
all confidence that i built up over the years..
left.
me.

its been so long since i last felt likedat.
tearing uncontrollably.
like a lost kid.

it was the only thing i reli wanted
the only thing i waited months for.
why does it hafto pass me by and go to someone else.
why.
why.
why.
.
.
.
i feel like crap.
the disappointment so intense.
it numbs my senses.
the feeling of worthlessness is reli horrid.
will someone do me a favour and just stab me pls.

~gone in a moment..