2:46 AM

know that worrying is pointless.. but i reli can't help it.
there isnt a single moment for the past 2wks that i've stopped thinking abt it.. i may be preoccupied with sth else.. but after a while.. my mind will ALWAYS switch back to it..
worry. worry. worry.
i'm reli gg mad juz thinking abt it.. thinking of what IFs.. thinking of wat may be..
just wat haf i gotten myself into???!!
never been this freaked my entire life.
and i noe that peace wont be with me
unless..
unless it finally comes. back.

today's xmas day.. received reli lovely gifts from haoz, miffu, noo and even oint (reli surprised.. she's perpetually broke.. wat with all her money spent on para-para) and we had this yummilicious log cake from awfully chocolate! and come tmr.. i'll be in HK busy shopping and eating and hopefully having a wonderful time.

and yet i still cant stop worrying. =( sigh.. i wonder if everything will be okay and return to normal.. if i relireli do realize my mistake.. pls pls pls pls dun let it happen..

~gone in a moment..