10:03 PM

someone pls enlighten me - how to be more peace-loving, more serene, less hateful, less prone to irritation and less subjected to absolutely pissifying moments!!

can't u tell i'm already trying so hard to make it work?
to get it back to how we were before?
efforts once again go un-appreciated, ignored.
"get lost get lost get lost"
yeh. go ahead.
spread all ur love around to the other 'occupants'.
i dun need your love.
i'm always treated as non-existent ard here anyway.

wonder if i'm reli tt un-loveable, un-deserving.
insignificant in ur oh-so-perfect life.

kept telling myself tt i reli dun care.
yet the truth is tt i can't let go.
willing ugly memories away.
or maybe it's pms.
or perhaps i'm juz a complete nutcase, a schizophrenic.
disorganized thinking.impaired perception.hallucinations.
paranoia. oohhh.. sounds so like it.

all i reli want now
is to grad, get a job, earn loads.
maybe get my own apartment
then i'll be able to steer clear of ur way
and get out of ur oh-so-perfect life.

sorry if i marred it in anyway.

~gone in a moment..